Life in MegaPixels

I didn’t realize some people took offense on my YM status message. Honestly, I had no idea until someone pointed out the whole plan, which I was never aware of in the first place. Having been busy with training, it was just too much to even consider checking mails and other discussions online. I was totally clueless.

I don’t mean to sound defensive or what, but just to give you an idea where I’m coming from (not that you would want to know, nor would I force you to believe).  I have been dreaming about that place eversince I met my former co-workers in the UK – they have been raving about their adventures and all I could say was… I really wish I could be there too. And I started searching online for packages that I could only wish were forgiving enough, financially at least! And there goes my YM status. I hope that clears out the issue. It was never meant to mock anyone… I didn’t have he faintest idea until someone came up to me. I don’t want to apologize for this because it was totally innocent.

I was just lazily chatting with 3 of my good friends one night. One was inviting me to a trip to Bora, another one inviting me to HK Disneyland, and yet another one was inviting me to go visit Singapore. Although I’ve been to all of these places, I can’t help but wish I could go on a sabbatical and go with them. Anything for a long vacation, be it shopping, shooting, diving, hunting or just hanging out in the beach getting a nice tan. Ooooh, the beauty of life… only a wish away… and then POOF! The sad realities of life kicks in – No doubt I will need some dough to burn for all these trips!

I had the most absurd, unbelievable, unforeseen, unexpected, yet totally disheartening revelation today. I guess it’s true what they say, life teaches you the most difficult lessons… and what can be more painful than being the unfortunate recipient of satan’s kiss of betrayal.

I would be a hypocrite if I’d say I’m ecstatic about this whole thing. I do feel bad…I feel used to some extent… but after a round of bangsilog at Rufu’s, I realized, in hindsight, that I should feel lucky afterall. I should be thankful for friends who are loyal enough to tell me when people start doing things behind my back, things that would make me look stupid in the eyes of other people. I should be grateful that as early as now, I am AWARE that I have friends that I should be wary of. Things like these remind me that I should be happy out of my own happiness, out of pursuing my own dreams and I should not rely on others to give me that sense of fulfillment… because they won’t.

I do believe that there are blessings in disguise. I guess this is one of them. I am moving on. Like God always assures me, when one door closes, He will open a window. I am just patiently waiting for God to open up His promised window for me. I hope it will be soon.

I have been on a blog hiatus for quite sometime trying to work things out between projects in the office, personal pursuits and other backlogs that have really kept me away from doing my regular blogging spree. Anyhoo, here’s a sneak preview on what kept me busy 30% of the time…

Bato bato sa langit…ang tamaan, may bukol! wala lang, i just wanted to let off steam. So what’s your story?

every step of the way….

I have always wanted to this. I don’t know why but more than the hands, I just feel that feet is a pretty good subject for prenup. It does have a way to communicate feelings/emotions hidden at the deep recesses of our hearts.