I am proud to say that, after 4 elections since I became eligible to exercise my right to suffrage, I have not voted for a single president or senator in this country, nor did I even think of registering to vote. I don’t mean to put down all those who actually voted and still had faith that their votes will actually make a difference. Really, it is noble and it is good that there are people like you. But like I always say, I am different.
Even as a kid, I never had faith in our government. More so, on the people who actually run it. I don’t know about you but my eyes have been opened to the unscrupulous practices and the universal grandstanding of our political figures early in my high school life that I have totally stopped believing. My exposure to journalism, in and out of the campus, showed me more than enough corruption that my young mind could afford at that time, that I have stopped trusting our government altogether.
Where I come from, is a place where everybody knows everybody. And it’s really difficult to keep a secret in a small town like that. Bombo Radyo usually reports expose of anomalies in our local government day in and day out. I had to live with this for the whole 16 years that I was growing up, exposed to small-town corruption, intrigues and…again, corruption.
When I entered the university, I became part of the Pi Sigma Delta, a sorority based in the University of the Philippines Manila. It was thru Pi that I have somehow switched on my idealistic and nationalistic heart, with a passion to render service to the masses, while keeping my sense of dignity and self-respect. For two years, I proudly shouted MAKIBAKA! and I fought, with a fury and conviction, for a cause that I truly believed in. But I never voted. Not because I do not trust that it mattered. But because even if it did matter, I personally thought it was a futile attempt to support someone to extort more funds from the people’s money!:-) Call it distorted, but I hate to be an accomplice if these people steal away from our taxes!
I know I am exagerrating a bit but my reasons are deep-rooted. When I was a kid, I have seen people going in and out of our house, having lunch/dinner, staying at our guest room. Innocent that I was, I tried to be hospitable at all times. In fact, I even let our so-called guests use the remote control so they can watch TV in the living room, even if there’s a show that I so want to watch.
Now that I’ve grown up, it became clear to me. I realized that these engineers, masquerading as guests, were actually staying at our place so they can go to the bar/club at the expense of our business. Apparently, they do that to juice out the contractors before the billing docs get signed. These are the small time ones that I’ve seen. But there are bigger ones I’m sure, where percentages get deducted from the actual billed amount. But that I have no proof of. I wish I had though, but then that won’t make much of a difference now, does it?
Early in my life, I have witnessed corruption unfold before my eyes. It’s real. It bit me hard. I guess that’s why I’ve stopped believing that this country will rise above the challenge. I wish these new set of senators could prove me wrong though. I just wish.